Anniversary

Yesterday was the anniversary of the day they admitted me to the hospital last year when I went into preterm labor with Will. It also happens to be the anniversary of when I started this blog...well, technically that came a few days later, but that's beside the point. I can't believe it's already been a year! As soon as October hit, I had such a strange, overwhelming, feeling...I can't even really describe what it felt like. I don't know if this time of year will just be more sentimental now as it reminds us of everything we went through, but what I do know is I'm definitely feeling something. At times I think it's sadness...realizing how quickly time has passed and how fast the kids have grown. Other times I think it's just the memory of what I was feeling back then...Will and I did a lot of bonding that month and to a certain extent, the hospital was a comfort to me. I remember feeling relieved when they readmitted me after sending me home when they "thought" things were under control again. I just knew something wasn't right and it felt better to be in a hospital surrounded by people who understood what was going on, than to be at home where I felt helpless and vulnerable and completely out of control. I missed Drew and Lili like hell, but Will obviously needed more time and he wasn't going to get that with me being anywhere else. This past weekend I wanted to take the kids to the apple orchard/pumpkin patch, but Drew refused. He said it was too weird. We had gone to the same orchards on Sunday, October 5th, 2008 and on Monday the 6th I was admitted to Abbott. I tried to reassure him that I wasn't pregnant, but that didn't seem to be enough. HA! So, instead we will try to go this upcoming weekend. I guess it's probably good to spice things up anyway! I am so excited for Little Man to experience fall in MN and for Lili to start learning about all of the fun things that come with this time of year too!